Our Lord is Great indeed. While playing His songs i was gradually forgetting what I wanted to write. Somehow i am still feeling pain... seems like this wound need another person to heal it. Love will be the best remedy. I felt God's, my father's, my family's and my friends'. All these are wonderful and marvelous Love that i got from others. However i didnt receive it, my heart is still numb... until what my female friend showed me care and love(which we are supposed to have in our work =) ) while i was the "patient" in the practical. Maybe that's God's Grace... and also the song "here i am" melted my heart too.
Love = Trust + Joy.
Indeed is true when you felt from others , except from your better half. I believe it's something much sophisticated, differently.
I must CONFESS something. I hated her at the moment when she says "I am sorry"... this shows that she didnt know what i am doing all the time. well i would rather she dislike me forever... or even till the end of the time, i dun mind, as long as what God knows it's enough... I almost sent her that when i was going to sleep, but i hold back because i afraid i will hurt her again. why i will do that? i also dun know. maybe is the spirit in me tells me so... =)... luckily she pursues God a lot... phew and it doesnt matter her more.. lucky! =)
Supposedly wanting to use the NP ambassadors as a outreach.. but i am not included... LOL! well i believe there are always chances ahead. I am looking at the future....
AND ALSO BE ACCOUNTABLE OF MY PROMISE...
for i see the visions when i am with her =)
but how am i going to overcome it?
Depending on God and my brothers' and Father's Love...
it's time for me to prove others wrong.
If she is taken, i will fight it back...
For i believe what vision my Lord have given to me
Often i like to say,
Heaven has no roads,
Hell has no doors.
but is it true...?
for me i think it's true,
for my Lord has built this World to create eternity life for us who are good =)