excelling in work?
lol past years i know if i work harder a bit, i will be able to make it to the express... which i dun think it's good at the start.
everyone tells me that express is good... but yeah, can you see what's behind?
i got a feeling that singapore children are having deprived childhood as compared to the past. the rebellion in children nowadays is a wakeup call for this constricted yet limited space of education and parents' attitude towards children. nowadays children are getting more intelligent, or parents are becoming more hardworking haha =D poor parents.
the child dislike the parents, simply becos they didnt know how much their parents contribute to build this family, to raise them up and to see them growth. to a parent, there are 2 milestones, the time where they become grandparents and seeing their children throwing their square hats. these are the two things i remembered what my english teacher told me during my secondary school years. yeah, i do appreciate them. the things that they did in the past and present i saw clearly with my eyes. my father was a wonderful person, quit smoking for us, do OT for us, and yup, one memorable event was that he carried me to a nearby clinic. i think that time i was breathless, kinda choked. in the present, though he was not that young anymore, he still will try to earn extra money to supoort the family, like collecting used copper wires and remove them from insulator. interestingly, was it a help from God? an enlightened way to teach my father to earn more money? i believed that is.
my mum is a less educated person. she supports this family from being a sales gal to a wanton mee auntie, and yeah i can see her contributions. everything what parents do for the family the children can't see=) becos it's all so secretive haha.
promised to tell you guys about what my frends told me. remember i asked my frens about the way i speak in conversation? yup! they said no, but maybe my body language says that... haha=)
it's going to 1:15am yet i am blogging lol... but nvm. finish up everything what i shall blog!
today joy told me the importance of studies to God, and i think that God is talking to me. i know i myself is able to study and cope with stuffs but just that lack of discipline. of cos this can helps me to develop a stronger person out of me and of cos, being more knowlegdable ba. those words struck me deep and hard. there will be more work to come. though it's tough, i will still hang hold on God's strength as the Strength He given to me never ends, like Superman. yes, i know my Lord is giving me infinite strength, however, though my spirit is willing but my body was weak. fortunately my Lord refreshes me with 2 hrs of sleep. Praise the Lord! throughout the whole day i was busy, walk walk here walk walk there haha! test in morning, cell after that. night movies(or should be walking around boat quay ba haha=D)
of cos after the talk about excel in studies i began to think about her. she just flashed through my mind. how to help her? what was placed in front of me by God is truth, otherwise i wont be that able to think that straight le. not going into relationship is a decision that i respect her. yeah... but still love will never stop flowing becos it's from God! Praise His name that He is always supplying His Love to me and so i can give to others. She maybe mine yet there is a lot of chances that she might not be, even though i am very afraid to lose her speak truthfully. but i will not hold it so tight that she is unable to breathe or something beocs i know she's also a human and she has her rights=). Man crys in heart, unlike woman who is able to shred tears. the crying in heart often harden man's heart, causing it to numb, but dun worry that wont happen most of the time on me though it happened a few times haha=). it's God's Love that clears my heart, and so no longer me will hatred, nor ager as He has sealed mine, nor jealous beocs nothing belongs to yours, but love the others and bless them even they cursed you.
we are the one who can make difference in the evil vicious cycles, like how i stopped chain mail. =)
Father, as i completed this blog i may be feeling tired or fatigue,
yet Lord, Our Wonderful God, for you has sacrificed your Son to die for us,
and the day that we started to sin, there is no rest for God and Man.
yet there is the marvellous Love of Yours and energy that you provided to us!
thank you Lord.
For even hardest times of my Life you have sent anointed people in my life to set me free!
thank you Lord.
may i am in the wrong path,
may i am in the wrong way,
yet Lord till the very end of time i still want to love her the same way.
cos the things You hav shown me is beyond believing...
so I will use this simple faith to Believe. =)