what are we in Christ?
servants.
what so good about being a servant?
serve Him, His people and be free from sins.
what is good things can we gain from His salvation?
His promises, His wonderful Love and His blessings.
I believe there's certainly more than that. for everyone in Christ is a great man of God. Lord loves us and cares for us. but somehow i will feel some rejections from it.
Be truthful this time =)
what so good being His servants? we have to listen to His Words and Commandments. yucks! i hate to follow rules. and some how ya, He will make a lot of obstacles within our way to our destination, our dream. He stopped me and obstructing me from getting even closer to her. but somehow i saw His Blessings. it's tired to follow His words. i am trying to keep all the rules and yup there are a lot of things going on in my mind. so much things to remind myself, such as not letting off my steam, dun put my eyes on other gals, be careful and be sensitive to what you are saying, be caring and always optimistic, read His Words, dun forget appointments, and lots more. still have to worry for my god daddy, my mum's problem(it will solve when i confirmed get the bond), my financial stability, my father, my brother, my younger sister, my spiritual brothers and sisters, though quite ashamed to say i concerned for some only, worried for my classsmates and my buddies, and there's more! can man be a bit simpler? i think yes. just love Jesus. =) it's heavy, you know. now need to recap and revise on my Nursing skills and practise them. ahhh~ =S
heard of Gu Jun Zuo Zhan?
it's by JY, Jun Yang. haha. this society has really went beyond our imagination. and well i am ashamed to say that our youngsters are still in La La land! haha =D!
*thinking what i have done and process of today!*
ah! morning went to Chris's house for cell. Spiritual Children, Baptism, major event, and lastly, time for Lord. woo luckily didnt forget! =P and yup yup! night went to Dylan's house for dinner! it's a nice dinner. tomato sauce spaghetti and chicken wings! simply yet delicious! though it's a fast night, but during the day i thought of some stuffs.
yes Lord, forgiven me for I have hurt her. But i just wanted to change the future for both of us! the road of life was given to one, on his both hands by Jesus when one are born. Praise the Lord for His Grace! A~men! i have chosen to hurt her, and now wanted to love her. i can confirm that day that i ask for separation, it's God's voice, a start of trials and obstacles that Lord had wanted me to go. Through out these days, i really have learnt a lot of things! "go away lust", "Lord i repent!" and yeah attention to others was so important. of cos there's more. resist temptation from other beautiful gals and blah blah blah. a lot man~! wahh... selah moments in my life seems to be a lot lol!=D
but something i really scare of. cos my emotion for her is now on and off. instability. zzz. trying to maintain. really wanted to rekindle but she doesnt want to give me the chance...? ahhh~ maybe she's still not ready. and all my brothers and buddies say to me,"you got a long time for you to wait". but i am willing =) becos my Lord is good. and what i found in her is also good. she has the X-factor that attracts me a lot and able to let me to wait long long! in fact all gals have a unique one! =)
is it a temptation to me when people talks about her things to me? she says yes, asking me to resist that. but i said no. my Lord has once asked me. and it appeared suddenly lol, really attacked me. answering the question wasn't easy. i asked my heart. is others who influenced you to love this gal or it's yourself who love this gal? i asked myself and i searched in my heart. and yeah, is it others tempted me? no, i just simply love this gal. others cant infuence my choice. hey she may not be the most the beautiful gal in others' eyes but she is in my eyes haha=). Qing ren de yan li qu xi shi =). i may not have the correct answer for the future but at least i have it now, right at this moment of my life and hoping it will last forever=). i placed both of my palms upwards and submissive to God's words! she doesnt belongs to me but Jesus Christ! others can only make me love her a little bit more, not make me to start to like her. at the end of the day, it's my heart that loves her, and eventually the influencing factor may cause my love for her to die off, and if that happens, this love should not be lasted till now =). why is this so? cos i chose to love her, one and only=). eh, me selfish hor? i feel kinda so. it's like trapping her, but i am not. she still can go for other guys and have my blessings! =) cos she doesnt belongs to me.
eh recently my heart kinda stoned le. tomoro have to go to church to soften my herat and asked Lord for a heart of flesh not heart of stone. =). and i am glad that my Lord has really held me tight, so tight that everyday I know He's always beside me, and say" Son be simple and do My Work, what you ask will come true as you commit yourself in it, for My Father in Heaven is Good." my efforts... hmm, do you guys believe that my rewards is always there but just that i dun claim it by my efforts? i know i have disappointed my Father in Heaven so much that, He wants me to put in just a little bit more of effort than others to get those stuffs that i want. who knows me better than He who is in the Heaven? Praise Lord! and He will reward me more than what others hav. a lot more... like the part of His Wisdom that He has given to me. His Wisdom of Far Sight, able to plan what is ahead. but i always forget something that is, a backup plan. it's like His method of working. Giving the man to choose a road to walk and walk. when the man wants to give up, poof! there is another path given to that guy, and this path is made by God. Praise the Lord forever!! =D
and these graces are the things that hold me that God is real. =) A~men! haha!
thanks Lord. you hav really prepared my heart..
It's your Gracious Name that allows me to stand forgiven in front of you.
and so i wanted to continue to bless Your name, my Saviour and Redeemer!
thank you Lord so much.
find your way in Him lady!
allow me to continue to Love You and her,
by my simple faith...
THAT I USED WHEN I CONTINUE TO BELIEVE IN YOU =). 26/8