today... dunno feeling happy or.. depressed?
happy becos she's here today for the party, yeah she finally got a bday cake for herself le =). something she missed her 21 years in her life?! lol i also dunno. this is her 21st bday so must celebrate, cos that bday on that year is something very special in our lives. there is only once bday for your age at that year, so try not to miss it.
ah talk about bday!~ just reminded me of what our Pastor said. some christians had said that we cannot celebrate bday. but i dun think so. have you ever wondered that why christmas, the day when Jesus is Borned, is on our calender 25th december? i dun think anyone can answer that, since that took place, since before you and i are being "released into the world" from our mum's wound...? why cant it be on sept 1st? why cant it be at Jan 1st? they are the first day of the month and so, there are always chimes from churches to celebrate for Jesus' birth, which is even better and of cos, nicer =).
things and events took place in different times under the planning of God. for me, i dunno whether all are miracles from heaven, i will choose to believe some and not to believe some, cos they might not mainly focused on me only. God may use me as a blessing to the others, who knows? you maybe the next one too ;).
well well there can be a lot of possibilities and things happening on her and on me. whatever so, i will never mind about it and of cos i must have an open heart to everything. she may like another guy who is more handsome, able to commit to her, able to dotes her more, able to reach her place faster,live closer to her, able to talk to her with security and of cos, more mature than her and always know what she wants, more gentleman, and whatever so lol.
for me? i still dunno what's ahead. of cos i will still keep a lookout. i may not have the whole heart for the gal who likes or loves me, but as long as i am with her, i will keep the promises i have given to her, for my Lord has promised me what i wanted, so being a son of God, must alway do the same. things are always easy to say but when taking actions is always the toughest.
today is a good example =D. there should be 9 names on the list to help out yishun eldercare today but in the end, only 5 turned out.
today of cos, i am kinda regretted that i didnt go for cell group, cos yi long is also there! hallelujah! Praise the Lord! but i did something that i was happy of. putting God's work at first and learning is the first in my priority list, somehow, i am able to weight the difference.
let's see! =)
today i go for the BBQ party. i won trust of people but i lost His teachings. there's give and take in Lord's eyes. sure there is sacrifice. His teaching is important, but i believe He will like to see more people being touched by the salvation that Jesus Christ gave on the Cross! A~men!! =). maybe i have lost something becos i didnt go for the prolonged cell group but i have gained something instead =D.
thank you Lord Father!
Your effort will not gone into drain.
may You bless her, me and all people who are related to me, around me,
in each moment I Believe in You. =)